jesus christ i have no fucking clue how i'm going to do this cos i'm already stupidly emotional and i'll probably just cry all night like a giant fucking baby and then you'll divorce me AND THIS WILL BE ALL FOR NOTHING, imagine that, the end of our marriage...an anniversary mental breakdown. ANYWAY. things like this will never stop being hard to do and i'm not saying that cos it's just so hard to talk about how much i love you, cos trust me that's not hard at all, but i'm so bad with words none of the things i say ever feel like the right thing or good enough. i guess that's kind of a theme for me, the whole insecure and inferior thing but i remind myself everyday that you married me and no one else so obviously i'm good enough for you and that's really all that matters. first of all holy shit it's been two year??? that's crazy but at the same time i'm really not surprised we've made it this long. i'm sure there are people out there that never thought we'd stay together but they're assholes and we're better than them. i really wish it were possible to put into words how incredibly lucky i feel to not only be your husband but to just have you in my life in general. i know i've told you this plenty of times before but my life was such a mess before i went and fell in love with you. i'm so glad that it happened, i'm so glad that my life changed completely. i'm so happy that i have someone in my life who loves me unconditionally which i know isn't easy. i know i suck sometimes, i know i'm not the best husband always because i'm just stupid when it comes to a lot of things but that's me and it doesn't reflect on you as a person at all. i will never stop telling you how perfect you are, no matter how much you deny it, because i know i'm right and that's never going to change. you are the most amazing person i've ever met and you've made my life amazing just by being in it. i would honestly be a mess without you and not even a hot mess, just a regular stupid and pathetic mess. i'd be so lost and even more out of my mind than i already am and lord knows that'd be a terrible thing. if i could put into words how much i love you then i would but honestly it's impossible, i've been trying since the day i realized i was in love with you and i've just been speechless in that area. there have been times where i woke up in the middle of the night like OH THIS WOULD WORK but then i remember that there is no combination or words or anything that will ever be able to express the love i have for you though i wish there were because that'd make this so much easier. i need to wrap this up before i use all of my words and i still need them for other things EYE EMOJI anyway, these have been the best two years of my life, i've never been happier than i am now and there's no one else or nothing else in the world that i have to thank for that except for you. so thank you for putting up with me and thank you for loving me despite how ridiculous and terrible i can be at times, thank you for changing me and making me better and just thank you for being you because you're all i've ever wanted and needed. i've told you a million times and i'll tell you an infinite amount more times but i love you more than anything in the world, happy 2 years babe!!!!